let’s get real
I was miserable.
I desperately wanted people to love me, but I believed I was unloveable and people were only nice to me to get what they wanted. This would trigger thoughts I had about myself and I would react to people and circumstances that made me uncomfortable.
My overreactions kept pushing people away. My own mother was afraid to tell me things for fear I would get too upset. I knew it was happening and I didn’t know how to stop.
I’d have breakdowns over the slightest things. Like dirty socks on the floor or somebody asking “What’s for dinner?”
When I got a divorce – of course – I took the opportunity to “change my life”. I took up oil painting, played roller derby, changed my job, lost weight. Ran 5k’s. Traveled the world. Moved to Chicago. Became a tour guide. Learned to sail.
My life in Chicago was completely different – except for one thing – I still had the arguments, the overreactions, the loneliness, the heartache. My life LOOKED amazing… but I was still unhappy and blamed everyone around me… leaving a trail of hurt and pissed off people behind me.
So what FINALLY changed for me?
By changing my thoughts… I learned to LITERALLY reprogram my thoughts and now I experience the world differently.
It’s an ongoing PROCESS and NOT a magical “I woke up one day…” moment.
Once I learned that MY OWN THOUGHTS created my feelings of loneliness and kept people away, I could see the shift happening.
I began getting closer to people. I stopped being afraid of them. I began craving time with people.
I know what I’m saying is an introverts nightmare.
Unless you’re tired of being alone, like I was.
I craved a tribe. I want to be included. I hate being left out.
I want to teach you the techniques I’ve learned, so you can create new thoughts… and create a new life.
They’re SIMPLE, not easy.
You have to want it.